Ciggy Ciggy!

let me draw a line. a timeline of my life. but since it would take me forever to paint it with words, let me start the dot with today and i'll flash cards from then, now and that which is to be visible yet.

she came : i found her

the line went crazy, the horizontal stiff of my existence became scribbles of a 1 year old. and for the first time ever in my life i gasped out these words -- this is hardly easy.

step on
a different set of tiles.

first of all i have to deal with what i left before pressing on. leaving something especially if it is what your life is, isn't easy. you pick yourself from your usual sidewalk and put him to a different pavement. what i had was like walking on the same street everyday then suddenly i found myself treading on water with the vast ocean up ahead. and i must know where to go.

hold on
a compass of a supernatural direction.

i have no plans of leaving the country. really. but here i am everyday praying to go. my compass is made up of a smile, a misty eye, and sounds a lot like a puppy with ADHD syndrome, even if she's silent at times. since i've held on to her i don't want to let go. and she points to impossible. but i have to familiarize myself with the supernatural. coz in the first place she came from it and she is the being of it. i can't explain it in words. it's difficult to describe. but it's a heart-filling gibberish that i understand a lot because it transcends communication. that's where i get my directions.

keep on
a time that never tells

the truth is. whether i go with her or not, she will go. whether we like it or not. that's why we are on it everyday. my hitch of a lifetime. grr i can't write anymore of this.

as i've said this is hardly easy.

putting your life to an uncertainty of where and when which is exactly the opposite of the certainty of what you feel.

but there, is always the supernatural. there, is always her. there, is always me.

on and
on it.

and my timeline marks the beginning of forever.

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